Tuesday, August 31, 2021

Or maybe all isn't as it seems

Lyrica

You know, I am taking Lyrica now for the neuropathy extremis.  That and Gabapentin.  

My only complaints for a year (I could only get to a doctor in August of 2020, but I would have whined sooner in a normal year) were "My back hurts, and I can't feel my feet."

Anything that helped those 2 things was what I wanted.  Don't tell me it is blood cancer or lymph node cancer or bone cancer.   I don't care.  Make the back pain and numbness go away.  That's the need.  Knowing why is a kinda useful want.   I've been getting what I want, but not what I need.

Thing is.  My back hurts less.  And it is coincident with the Lyrica.  First piece of good news if that is actually helping.  

You've seen the pain scale.  




I was 3 4 5 (Bees?) until they fried some nerves in my back with radio waves.  Sadly, that only made it 2 3 4.  But better than nothing.

Oxycontin gets it down to 1 2 3, but that is very temporary.  So is a pack of steroids  1 2 3, but only for two weeks, then back up.  And you can't do more of those for a long while.

I might be 1 2 3 right now.  Hooray!  Lyrica!  Supposed to fix my feet, but fixed my back instead.  I notice no real improvement with the numbness.  Could be a coincidence, but I will take it.  Improvement is greater than placebo.  

But a plus to the neuropathy.  I get wounds in my hands just doing normal that bleed like crazy and would hurt like the dickens normally.   I only notice it when blood gets on stuff. 

New complaint though.  Listlessness.  Easily fatigued.  Shortness of breath with any mild exercise.  The Cancer causes that.  Dropping my red blood cell and hemoglobin numbers.  Simulates anemia.  Had this symptom long before starting Lyrica, so it's not a side effect.  

The anemia lowers my blood pressure, too.  Which is a plus because it was pushing 140/90 this time two years ago.  110/70 and dropping now.

Listless, like "Lets get a load of laundry downstairs and in the washer.  Tomorrow I'll have the energy to go back down there and swap to the dryer."  I combine tasks as much as possible.  Make every trip accomplish two things.  "The kettle is whistling, better grab some trash since I am heading to the kitchen for coffee."  That sort.  


Monday, August 30, 2021

I was told the Taliban wanted to rehabilitate their image

They do this on the first day no American military presence is about.  With one of our 'donated' Blackhawks.


NEVER underestimate Joe's ability

To F*** things up.  

He wants to burn down the alliance we have with Britain.  I am sure China approves.  

Happy, then Sad

The little down tick in reported positive cases in my county made me happy.




Then the subsequent up made me sad. 

State numbers look a little "well, it was rising but may be plateauing, but still too soon to tell."




Maryland:

Number of confirmed cases : 494,255 since January 2020
Number of persons tested negative : 3,923,576 
Total testing volume : 11,940,441 

Number of confirmed deaths : 9,760  since January 2020
Number of probable deaths : 223 

Currently hospitalized : 690 
Acute care : 510 
Intensive care : 180 
Ever hospitalized : 45,842  since January 2020

We can deal with 690 in hospital.  If they are evenly spread among all state hospitals.  

Sunday, August 29, 2021

Yeah, nobody but cops (ok) and bad guys (boo!) use pistols, after all

Can't TELL you how many times I had to tell women this.

I'm a sailor not a sex toy.

Or, more likely, "I'm a Naval officer, and not yet have my wings.  I feel a bit inebriated, but could you please unhand my 'Goose' madam?"



Saturday, August 28, 2021

It's kinda like that



Hipster is Disappoint

The cancer might probably not be the bespoke Waldenstroms but the more pedestrian common Chronic Lymphocytic Leukemia.

And I must admit I am a little disappointed.   I would no longer be Special.  Poop!

Slow burn cancer either way.  That suits me fine enough.


Friday, August 27, 2021

Back from the Oncologist.

"Waldenstroms?  Did I tell you you had Waldenstroms?  I musta been drunk or high or something.  It's probably... CLL?  Let's get you to a Gastroenterologist and see if he can find a lymph node in your gut we see on your CAT scan."

You know those guys are backed up (heh) right?  They had to take a year's vacation when Fauci told them to.  I won't get close to his office till after Halloween.

"And?"

Well, if the only reason to go to him is for him to look at a lymph node you can already see, and THAT is what is delaying my treatment, can't we just pretend he looked at it and saw it, too?

"Look, I'm delaying it because it probably won't alleviate your symptoms anyway, so, why crush your hopes now when I can let you have a few more months of it?  Hope, I mean."

Fair enough.

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Insurance companies will spend $10,000 on second opinion doctors but not $777 on a CT scan.

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Meanwhile my red blood cells and hemoglobin keep dropping.  Slow and steady, wins the race.  To the bottom.  Of my car, when I pass out getting out of it.  

Thursday, August 26, 2021

Details

I'm not a car person.  As a kid I thought I would be, but it didn't turn out that way.  It rankles thinking about how much a new car loses in value when I drive it off the lot.  Especially when there are THOUSANDS of new cars with birthdays that will never be sold.  Not to you, not for love or money.  Would you buy a 2019 model F150 with 55 miles on the odometer?  Well there are plenty out there, but you can't.  Ford will scrap that before selling it to you at a lower price point.  It's business.  

So I buy a vehicle for transportation.  It has to fit in my driveway, and has to haul what I need hauled, and it'd be nice if it worked in the weather.  And used.  Pre-owned.  So a bit cheaper. 

So with that attitude I don't run my car through a car wash.  There is plenty of sand under my floor mats.  If I wont pop for that, I certainly won't pop for detailing.

But I am rethinking that.  In an 'you only live once and what else you gonna spend your money on?' sort way.  If I am thinking that it is getting time to get a new used car, and have a plan for a year from today, today, I am getting the car detailed.  So my last year with it it feels clean.  If the car is still re-sellable, CarMax or whoever will detail it again, but I don't care because I turned it over.  

Maybe I'll go to the barber, too, and get a straight-razor shave if that bastard can avoid cutting my joogyooler vein.



Wednesday, August 25, 2021

Of course, THIS intrigues

If


If you could own one weapon we let the Taliban steal what would it be and why is it the M240B?




I always kinda dug that platform.  7.62.  Way too heavy for me right now.  Proper machine gun.  

(Meh.  I'd need mointing points all over the property and vehicles for it, and a tripod.  Too anemic to carry one very far.)

Tuesday, August 24, 2021

Shooting In Portland

 And witnesses found this on the ground.



Unfired round.

My guess is the shooter didn't know if he had one in the pipe so racked the slide to be sure, losing the one in the chamber.  Or the shooter is new and 'knows' you always gotta do that before you go into a gunfight.  Saw that on the TeeVee. Hey, maybe he had a failure and did a failure drill!

Note the plated case, too.  Might be actual self-defense ammo.  Holler-points or what have you.


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Wait, did that round belong to THIS hippy with a batman-badge over here? If so, sheesh, man.

Monday, August 23, 2021

These are paratroopers, right?

This is an exercise?



I never forgot the people that jumped from the towers, and noise they made when they hit in that documentary that came out a few weeks after. Prolly won't forget this part either. I knew who to be mad at 20 years ago. Who should I be mad at this time round?

When they evacuated Bagram AFB...

Way back in July, I remember thinking, then, that that was a big deal, and something I personally would have saved for last.  It was very secure inside, and the last thing I'd hand over on my way out.  But I wasn't there.  I wasn't on the ground.  What did I know, way over here?  People much smarter than me made that decision so it would probably turn out fine.  I guess.

Meh.

Then Auguse, before I knew it, they had abandoned Hamid Karzai airport in Kabul, then quickly reversed the decision because thing got a little spicy a little quickly.  So I had no time to shake my head ruefully about that.  

I hope things get better before they get worse.  



Sunday, August 22, 2021

So this is fun.

Been off work since Wednesday because of this, but I still gotta walk on it to get medicos.


Overdid it.  Mentioned that before.  The lower lividity is more bruise like than blood-poisoning like. 

Yes, I told my doctor.  Even had a virtual visit.  Hurts a bit.  Staying off it as much as I can.  CT Scan tomorrow, tho, and I am not letting them delay me again, insurance or no.

"So what is the good news T-Bolt?"

You know, I am not as debilitated by my back as much!  Much more bearable.  So I got that going for me. Just the foot problem.

Feels good when I drain it.  Ahhhhhhhhhhh.

Two days later:


Feels better, too, after the lancings, once it sorta stayed drained.  It took a few.  I drained it the way they taught boy scouts to do hiking blisters back in the 80s.  And I know Infantry were taught similarly at least once.  That's all the fine detail you want to know:  "I successfully drained with an alcohol-sterilized everything," and leave it at that.

Saturday, August 21, 2021

Clarissa Ward

I am glad she got into Kabul airport.  I was getting worried for her because of how bad it was getting outside the wire.  Not that it is real good inside.

We know a lot more because of her.



Friday, August 20, 2021

Hands up, don't shoot

Looks like a pre-war combination of a OG bullet proof vest and a pepper box.  Hardly a machine-gun.  More an AOW.  Sorta like modern times, but a dude has a claymore attached to his plate carrier or helmet.  And probably about as useful.

How is alfalfa here gonna get gud with this?  Can you picture the RO's face?  






* Original Gangsta

** Any Other Weapon

*** Range Officer

Thursday, August 19, 2021

Vitamin I

I never have to ask myself "I wonder if I took my 4PM dose of Advil?"

It's always plainly painly obvious.  I'm glad it still works.  Naproxen Sodium and Meloxicam certainly don't.  For me.