Not so easy-shooting 9mm

I think I am a different shooter than I once was.  Before all the training.  Before I got better at it.

If you put a .45 and a 9mm on a bench and let me try both of the, the 9mm felt easier to shoot.  Gentle.  Almost like a .22 compared to the larger caliber.  Well, maybe not that gentle, but noticeable.

Now?  One of my biggest disappointments about getting a heavier 9mm pistol was that its recoil felt no gentler than a standard 1911.  I was expecting easier recoil control leading to faster accurate shots.  It just feels about the same. Same with other 9mm pistols, not just that first one.

I don't know.  Maybe getting better made the .45 seem gentler because of improved shooting technique and the 9mm is as gentle as it ever was.