Sunday, September 26, 2021

Eat Better

So, I am a little less worried about what steak and bacon is doing to me.  More greens?  I need more lima beans?  Nawwww.

I don't know what kind of treatment I will eventually get.  Well, I have an idea on the plethora of choices that might be deployed on me.  Side effects on all of them are pretty mild.  So I doubt they will peel off extra pounds.  Or take my eyelashes.

This time last year when we were trying to treat my back I cut out ALL booze and was going to physical therapy.  August to November I lost 30 pounds.  I dunno if it was the mild exercise and lack of beer, or the cancer, or both.  But the 30 pounds have stayed off.  I wouldn't mind 20 more, tho.  I'd still be fat, but much less so.  And my clothes would be loose but still fit.  Less than an eighth of a ton.  

It would be annoying to shop for a new wardrobe.

Hey, all this baggy clothing, I could CCW a Deagle comfortably!  Always a bright side.

I remember when I got down to 175 in my 20s.  I am 6 foot 1 inch.  I still looked fat.

Here is me as Goose.   My legs were at their strongest here.  It would take working in a brewery to get my arms to their strongest.


 
But I'm not gonna watch what I eat so much anymore.  I might drinka bit less because of my lessened stamina.  So bring on the pork chops.  Put ways the skinless chicken breasts and egg white omelets.        

Saturday, September 25, 2021

The past week was a partial one

But I am wore out.  

Sleeping decent.  Just not enough red blood cells to carry enough oxygen around when I am doing intense physical activity.  Like walk around an office.

I love watching competence porn on youtube.  My woodworking and furniture repair and refinishing skill would have been SO much better if youtube was up to 2009 youtube content quality by 1989.  






Gunsmithing doesn't transfer as well to video. I'd still need a bunch of in-person training to be any good at it, even with a plethora of gunsmithing videos. But the plethora of woodworking video, coupled with how well I picked up on things wood related in the 90s, the video here get absorbed like a sponge. I just wish I still had the stamina. Isn't that always the way?

Friday, September 24, 2021

More nuffin, so sorry bout the whinging.

Feeling really tired lately.  You know why.

I don't talk about my illness with other folks.  Two people at work that guessed, one a nurse that heard about a detail in a lab last May.  Another person that had back problems we detailed to each other, but then mine turned up to probably be this.  

And I over-share here.  As a place top over share.

A few of you I have met in meatspace.  A few of you that occasionally read here, I have met in meatspace.  But a lot of them folks I don't see every day or see on Facebook or whatever.  Borepatch and Proud Hillbilly.  For example.  Regular readers AND know what I look like on the maybe handful of occasions we hung out.  

But lots of folks that used to be regular readers just aren't.  Any more.  Like quite a few people I work with every day.  Heh.  So I keep a bit of privacy that way.  

But one checked in to the blog to see what I was up to and... uh oh.   Hi, you goof! 

I dunno why I wanna keep it private.  In some treatment scenarios it will become quite obvious I am on chemo soon enough.  But other treatments...  I won't even lose my eyebrows.  People I work with know something ain't right.  I've slowed way down.  But none pry.  None ask what political party I favor or my religious denomination, either.  

If I didn't turn up to work for a coupla days in a row they'd figure I'd have fallen in the basement and send someone to check on me, so I got that going for me.  More motivation to keep turning up to work.  Another motivation?  Money to buy food.  I like to eat something now and again.

"What do you do for fun, now, T-bolt, now that you don't have the energy to work in the shop or go camping or plink at the range?"

I dunno.  I like reading.  Reading some takes on the Cthulhu mythos.  For example.  I bought a buncha DVD to just have.  And watch.  Rewatch the Thin Man series and catch some other movies I haven't seen. My bucket list is to try a buncha different cocktails.  Sazerac is on the list next, but I did a fancy tequila tasting not that long ago.  I haven't had tequila since a fateful night 35 years ago.  Low impact activities I enjoy.  

I went up a ladder 4 times to clear my gutters.  Good thing, too, as two days later we got another gully washer.  But doing that wasted me for the rest of the day.  It does mean I don't yet need a helper monkey.


   


Thursday, September 23, 2021

Staycation and nuffin

Just ended a staycation.  It was nice.  Went out for steamed crabs at Cantlers, had some chili with JayG.  Some Pit Beef.  Saw the Emerald City.

No health news.  Meh, the Lyrica is cutting back the back pain, so, yay.

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I think the county's slight rise in Covid cases is wholly attributable to schools opening up?  Naw, it was heading up before school started.  But lots of extra testing and the 1,000 kids on quarantine.  Less spikes in the hospitalization numbers and it is already dropping there.  That also makes sense.  Schoolkids are prolly shaking it off.   Except the super-fat ones.  Positive tests... the graph is long enough now that the arc looks more like heading Y-0 instead of Y-Infinity.  So that is good.  Here.  I have no idea what it's like at your house.



Wednesday, September 22, 2021

Should I Clean My Guns?

I don't normally rush to clean my guns.  But I have been shooting less and less.

The guns don't mind being dirty.  That dirt is just burn propellant.  Carbon.  If it was grit from sand?  Clean!  If it was moisture from outside exposure?  Clean!  And way back then when I brought them home.

What do you think?

One of the advantages of a clean is a gun I hadn't shot in a while would get lubed, too. Not that I need 'em ready for action, but they'd, you know, be more ready for action.  

Monday, September 20, 2021

Name and Shame

Look at these commenters! 


No picture.  You don't  have to put a pic of your ugly mug up there.  I know that's how The Man gets ya!  But you see Proud Hillbilly's?  Doesn't give her away yet still has SOMETHING up there.  You Don't have to put up a Daguerreotype, Mike V and Jonathan H, but something. (And I only pick on YOU because you were the top of the comments list, no offence).  Put a photo of your best dog or that pistol you sold 5 years back on GunBroker or a blurry photo of LilNasX or sumthin'.  Doesn't matter.

Oh, how?  Try this:

Go to your Account info by clicking the upper right of this page, maybe, even, but certainly whatever gmail acct you are using.  Then Personal Info.  This cover 70+% of cases. 






Sunday, September 19, 2021

Never Go Back

So, for giggles, I saw the second Jack Reacher movie.  Jack Reacher: Never Go Back.  

Spoiler for this 5 year old movie:  A buig plot point is evil military sub contractors are selling US military equipment to the Taliban!  Must have sold them a few thousand rifles, and a lot of rockets.  They were using the proceeds to get opium to ship back to the States for sale as heroine here.

Ha!  Jokes on the Taliban.  Joe Biden was gonna give you all that .mil equipment, and then some, for free!

Also, the sub contractors were gonna get hosed when the Chinese undersold them on the dope with higher quality fentanyl-laced product.

Suckers.

Saturday, September 18, 2021

It's a film about the Clap

And it took almost 13 minutes to get to the nookie part.  Gah!  No wonder we never won a war after this one.  

You'll never learn how to STOP the clap if you concentrate on the poor wooing efforts of this dogface, Joe.

At 15:50 you see his yarbles are as swollen as Nikki Minaj's cousin after a 'vaccination'.  Great acting.  Look at that face!  And you Lady-People!  All you do is spread around a Dose like it is your job.  "It's no worse than a bad cold."  So the Syph in 1940 is WuFlu today?   Oh noes!


 

Friday, September 17, 2021

Doc Rodeo

Ok, got the Oncologist leaning on the new Gastroenterologist to get a quicker date than mid October. 

Appointment with same Oncologist on Monday for blood work.  Be sure my Red Blood Cell count isn't plummeting too fast

Appointment with GP on Tuesday to see how the Lyrica is doing for neuropathy and back pain (no impact on former, surprisingly decent on the later.)  See what she says.

Blood blisters on feet are healing.  

Got the ball rolling.  Not much else I can do.  

You may be entitled to a big cash payment!

Did you buy chicken?  Like, since the oughts?  


Thursday, September 16, 2021

That's better for the Zombacalypse

"Yeah? The biopsy didn't work"

"Ah, well.  Whatever.  We'll get back to you.  No hurry because...  We got nothing.  Treatment?  Naw we gotta know more before we can do that."

Good thing it's supposedly a slow cancer.  Cancers.  I mean we hope the cancers we are looking at are it and those all seem to be the slow kind.  

Godspeed!  

Lessons learned so far.  Doctors are really smart.  But they don't know a tiny fraction about how things work.  Dr. House is fiction, and he won't sweep in and go "It's not lupus."  Because he doesn't know. 

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Also.

Of all the cancers it could be, will any of the current treatments considered cure it? 

"No Mr. Bolt."

Will any of those treatments relieve the painful symptoms I am experiencing?

"Oh, probably not?"

Will it extend my lifespan very much?

"Also, no."

Why am I here in your doctor office, then?

"To get more and more frustrated, Mr. Bolt?"

Ah.  I see.  As long as there is a purpose.  I'd hate to think I was spending the insurance company's money for nothing.

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I wonder what Norm had?  Probably never know.  But if he learned about it 9 years ago, then he was exactly my age then.  And 9 years is a 'slow burn'.  One of youse hollah if you hear what flavor.  I doubt it was pancreatic or colon cancer.  He was able to work until near the end and didn't seem to be in pain.  Look at old comedy routines of Bill Hicks who died of pancreatic cancer in the 90s.  You can tell he is suffering. Still working tho.  

Wednesday, September 15, 2021

Who is this guy?

Calling ME a narcissist?  You wanna take it outside?  What?  Oh...


Choo Choo Too

How did we get this way?  With freight trains?

Gah, it's been forever since I did any research on this.  Let me wing it.

  1. As a commenter noticed, passenger fares NEVER made any money.  From 1825 to now.  You never wanted them, gov't interference forces it on the Railways.
  2. A mixed system steps on each other's toes. Always.  
  3. Both freight and passenger service was failing by the 60s.  See A Prayer for Owen Meany about this late stage failure.
  4. All this led to company failures, to company consolidation, to RR assets getting bought up cheap by the few survivors.  With fewer players there was less competition and less overlap and it was cheap enough to CLOSE some lines.  Make the track mileage more efficient.  Less track meant less money spent on track maintenance.  But many areas were still being serviced.  By one or two companies instead of six.
  5. Failure and consolidation meant the powerful RR unions had less clout, and their antiquate featherbedding work rules meant that you no longer were required to have a caboose with expensive signalman doing the work a single electronic signal box on the last car could do.
  6. That leads to other technological advances.  Containerized sea freight meant more efficient loading and less spillage to stevedores and freightmen.  New cars that could haul 2 containers stacked and still make it under existing tunnels.  The retirement of high maintenance steam and replacing with low maintenance diesel locomotives...  All increased efficiencies and cut costs.
  7. The gov't no longer requiring lines to have passenger service but took over that role themselves.  And the private sector lines had a bit more priority over public sector people movers.  A mile long freight train is most efficient by accelerating to 30 miles per hour and with good scheduling NEVER altering speed until approaching a destination.  It takes priority over a 70 mph Amtrak.  With double track, passenger and freight still can't really co-exist, still.  You'd need at least triple, and probably quadruple to make it work together.   
So there you have it.  Less labor/union costs, mostly by cutting 70 year old work rules that make no sense in 1975 and just fewer guys to fire, at this point.  Efficiency gains from technology.  Less maintenance cost from rolling stock and track.  And less scheduling conflicts because folks are shifting to cars and Pan Am and TWA and Eastern airlines to move themselves about.  Less 'toe stepping' by the half of the industry that never ever worked.  Passengers.  The only reason a train should hurry is because the tomatoes and avocados might over ripen.  

I see the appeal, the romance, of passenger rail.  It's just a HUGE pipe dream.  Unviable.  Like wind and solar electrical generation. If you want to ride the rails, be a hobo. 

One thing.  This 'greatest railway system on the planet, just for freight not stoopid people' all didn't happen overnight.  Took time.  While the dust settled, something had to cover the bases, and we got the romance of the 18 wheeler truck driver and their CB radios!



Another big plus?  You can't export internal supply delivery to the far east like you can electronics and steel and auto production.  So an industry can become a shambles and yet rise from the ashes, here, when you find it impossible to offshore it. 

Tuesday, September 14, 2021

Now I got a goal

Get to 61.  10 more years.  Beat that bastard, Norm.


Choo Choo

People giving us the bidness because we don't have enough trolleys and high speed rail.



We literally have the BEST rail system in the world.  Bar none.  Built up from a bit of a shambles in the late 60s, early 70s.  We just use it to move stuff around instead of people.  Our dispersed population moves people around in gas powered cars and cheap cattle car airplanes.  Some people like that, some people hate that.  But that is no reason to go all Manhattan project on a separate trillions dollar high speed rail that some people will like and some people will hate.  The whole idea is nonsense on stilts.  A product that has no demand so the only way it gets built is tax money?  Pfui.  

Monday, September 13, 2021

Christ on a Cracker

If the training starts to look like it is going toward this, didi-mau immediately.  Pack your shit, load that car, and git.


Sunday, September 12, 2021

See?

This is what I was talking about.  I got nothing.

I've been doing some cleanup around the house.  Had a lotta days off where I had no energy to drive to work, but just enough to, say,  mop the kitchen.  Throwing crap out.  

I might get some help from My Buddy the Gun Enthusiast and his Old Lady on cleaning more and organzing more and More-Trips-To-The-Dump.  Both because fighting entropy makes one feel better and not wanting to leave a mess for those that come after. 

I don't know how realistic my dreams of retiring to Cleveland are at this point.  Those dreams relied on me having the energy to drive a snow blower.

It will be ironic to have a proper lumber rack when I no longer have the ability to work the wood on it into a barrister bookcase. 

But entropy will be sccessfully battled.  A worthy effort in its own right.  But if I could eke out a bookcase or two, that would help with the entropy as well.  AND make me feel good.  Everything in its place....

Saturday, September 11, 2021

20 years in

Square one, I guess.  I wasn't happy last year, and had a low expectation for now, but man, my low expectation wasn't even met.  Just sad.  

Friday, September 10, 2021

Things are going swimmingly

Personally at least

Foot blister is healing, and that was annoying when it was bad.  Supposedly I should take longer to heal and me more vulnerable to infections, but, not yet.  Or I know how to first aid right.  

Lymph node biopsy done.  The Gastro is fast fast fast with the labs, so no other delays.  Oncologist Thursday.  And I think that we will be finally discussing a treatment schedule. It's only been 18 months.  That thing looks HUGE is the snapshots, but there isn't a lotta room in my stomach for the camera to back up.

Gonna take a staycation next week.  My poor posting lately would make it seem indicative of a months long staycation.  Sorry.  I DO need to get some more more thoughtful on-topics, less health related, posts, tho.  Being pre-occupied with my own mortality that has an anemic side-effect that makes range days difficult to pull off...

That's been a big question this WHOLE time.  How long have I had cancer?  As a kid I was never athletic.  Picked last at kickball, slowest at foot races.  Did I have cancer when I was 5?  I wasn't even fat.  

I was slow in the military.  Lemme tell ya, they do NOT like that in the military.  I could do 110 sit ups in two minutes but struggled to approach an 8-minute mile.  Did I have cancer when I was 22?  Did I just have cancer for the run portion of the PT test?

Training with a pistol I noticed myself flagging in stamina.  I marveled at people that could do a 500 round count training weekend.  I didn't think I had the gas for it.  Did I have cancer during the Obama administration?

Wait, let's do the math...  Carter, Clinton, Obama, Biden...  I ONLY HAVE CANCER DURING THE DEMOCRAT REGIMES!!  Well.  Those of you that don't want me dead, I hope you now vote accordingly.  Those that do wish me dead, I guess, Kamala 2024?

Thursday, September 9, 2021

Chits, Man!

Get yer face out of yer ears, Fat!

The estate of Ronald Reagan is gonna sue Joey B for stealing the Gipper's brown suit idea.

Chips, Ma'am?

 Bit sad, innit?

What caliber for...

U-Haul truck-sized chickens.

You know they would be deadly hazardous. 

LOOK how BIG it is compared to the sub-compact!




Best pistol

For women's bicycle cavalry?

(not pink. obvs)  

And that's a nice saber...



Wednesday, September 8, 2021

blink blink

Bishop quits church after falling in love with satanic erotica writer.


Oh Noes

Super duper over generous jobless benefits just ran out?  What do?

Well, go get your hair cut.  (All of them.)  Find some decent and clean cloths appropriate to where you want to be (dress for the job you want, but don't dress as Batman).    Pick a place with a sign, and walk in asking if you can apply.  Just like your older brother Robert.


Tuesday, September 7, 2021

Wow

If you are Social Security age, and live in my county, there is a 99.9% chance you have at least one vaccination shot.  And now I wish I could find that that chart again for the internet...  Have to rely on my memory, I guess. 


Rates of those with at least one dose: 
18 and older--
Montgomery County: 88.8 percent 
Maryland: 73.2 percent 
U.S.: 65.6 percent 

Full population--
Montgomery County: 74.0 percent 
Maryland: 60.6 percent
U.S.: 53.5 percent

Though the stat counters have been known to lie to me.  

Here Larry Hogan and Channel 9 says 80% of all Marylanders have one shot

Here it's only 68%.  Which is it?  Four different numbers!  Or, two sets of two, really

I guess we quibble now.  Larry is talking 80% of the people that have a bad time with the shot.  18+ year olds.   The other one counts toddlers and junk.  Whatever.  Fat adults under 65 and erryone over 65.  If you pay attention, get them groups, and you don't even notice China Virus as a thing.  

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Of course our high vax compliance and high mask compliance has done DOODLY with our infection rate, which is up and up and up.  We aren't dying, mostly.  Mostly.  Flu-like dying at this point, or less.  Bad enough.

Sunday, September 5, 2021

Clyburn

James Clyburn says:  "Filibuster Shouldn’t Apply to Constitutional Issues Like Roe, Privacy Rights"

I've got VERY good news for the Congressman.  The Filibuster already does not apply to Constitutional issues.

You see you need 66 Senate votes to get an Amendment to the Constitution rolling in the Senate.  Which is 6 more than what you need to end a filibuster.  So, have at it.

I don't need you messing with the 2nd Amendment  with 50% +1 just because you are disappointed with a failed injunction for ONE state that the Chief Justice is gonna kibosh, anyway, when the law comes up for SCOTUS review.

Friday, September 3, 2021

The Card Reads



Have Gun - Will Travel.  Starred Richard Boone.  It spawned a hit radio show, voiced by John Dehner, 

I couldn't tell the difference.  If you told me Boone recorded the radio program, I'd believe it.  It's a very good match.  Bosso profundo.

It was rare a TV show spawned the radio version, it was usually the other way round.  See:  Gunsmoke.

Gun content.  Please.  It's a 50s western, it was a single action army.  


That makes me think.  A studio could have a buncha western programs going on, but really only one or a couple prop pistols.  Four max.  And get away with it.  The pistol you saw on one show would be used again in an entirely separate series.  And another series 15 years later.  Or in a Star Trek episode where Kirk has to go against Doc Holliday for some reason.  The four studio guns would get more airtime than any one actor.


Frum

I remember when Frum was conservative.  He was as conservative as Jonah Goldberg was back in 2010.  Both metrocons, back in the day.  Well, they let Frum near a keyboard again.

"Altogether, about 500 Americans a year die from unintended shootings. That’s four times the rate of deaths from unintended shootings in peer nations. "  

Translation:  'Peer nations' means nations with the gun control Frum wants here.


"The gun buyers of 2020–21 are different from those of years past: They are more likely to be people of color and more likely to be women. They are not buying guns to join a race war, or to overthrow the government, or to wait for Armageddon in a bunker stocked with canned beans. They just want to deter a burglar or an assailant, should one come. 

Those dangers are real, and it’s understandable that people would fear them and seek to avert them. But like the people who refuse lifesaving vaccines for fear of minutely rare side effects, American gun buyers are falling victim to bad risk analysis."


Translation:  "You black people and women that bought guns recently aren't responsible enough to realize what an awful thing you've done getting a firearm.  Now let me explain your mistake to you further." 


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Oh, and my term 'metrocon'?  It seems to be overcome by events.  There are no metrocons left.  If they were a metrocon they are just liberal democrats now, caucusing with Pelosi.  

Thursday, September 2, 2021

Energy

 

Imagine a world where the nuke line didn't stall, but sort of carried on with a modest upward velocity.  Maybe another 4,000 Terra-watt hours?



That would cover ALL the popular faddish unreliable subsidized renewables.  We really only built nuclear powerplants for about 10 years, then stopped for 40.  Because of a Jane Fonda film and our subsequent inability to improve the design.    



Wednesday, September 1, 2021

Nam Flashbacks

I knew all that time in Nam was going to catch up with me.


Agent Orange. The U.S. Department of Veterans Affairs lists CLL as a disease associated with exposure to Agent Orange, a chemical used during the Vietnam War.


"T-Bolt you were too YOUNG to have fought during the Viet Nam war!"


I didn't say I was there during the WAR.